I need regular life: What I have is depression and anger instead

It’s Saturday. I woke up and was immediately depressed. And then I got angry. Really angry. There’s nothing to do. Sure I can go grocery shopping, which has pretty much been my sole activity for two years. I can go for a walk, but it’s crazy cold outside, so that really doesn’t appeal to me.… Continue reading I need regular life: What I have is depression and anger instead

We all have it, that’s virus mania

Being outside in public today feels different. People are obviously (once again) more aware of other people being near them, and the energy they are giving off is fearful, protective and weary all at once. We are used to it so it’s like, here we are again. So when we can’t go into the vet… Continue reading We all have it, that’s virus mania

I can’t be brave any longer, I miss you all

I just sat down at my desk and looked out my window where I see the downtown wrapped around the mountain, and cars driving to and from the city. So many people going and coming, and I feel so disconnected from them all. The world is just outside my reach, and if I stretch out… Continue reading I can’t be brave any longer, I miss you all

The virus stole my father, but not how you think

In the beginning, when the virus hit, my father died. I wasn’t even able to hold his hand as he passed. I wasn’t allowed in the hospital. Instead he died alone among strangers. I had always pictured being by his side. That was how it happened in my mind. Me holding his hand, so he… Continue reading The virus stole my father, but not how you think

Why I become emotionally attached to fictional characters

I become emotionally attached to characters in the books I read and the TV series I watch. Not all books or series, they don’t all elicit deep feelings for me, but the characters who do are very real for me. And even to me that sounds strange. For example, when my life gets too stressful… Continue reading Why I become emotionally attached to fictional characters

Facing our minds through menopause

I’m reading The Change by Germaine Greer, which is her book about women, aging and menopause. I have found that menopause and aging in general about women isn’t talked about much, even among women, and Greer talks a lot about that. Women talk about their periods and their experiences of being pregnant and with childbirth,… Continue reading Facing our minds through menopause